*sigh*

It's funny when we are kids..
We have so many dreams and aspirations..
Life is easy and our biggest problem is the rain that doesn't let us go out and play or our new toy that just broke down.
Aww.. Life always like this was just a big dream.
I wish it was still like that, all that simple as it was back than.
The funny thing is that I don't even remember being a child.
It's weird but I have no memories. It's like I have never lived until these past 10 years or so..
What I do remember is that I didn't have a goal for my life, aspirations or dreams..
And if I did have them, I just don't remember.. at all..
All I know is that I always liked the simple things in life, such as sleeping, being alone, listening to my noisy music or depressing (depending on the moments) and myself..
I always enjoyed being alone, although sometimes that made me feel worse than I always do, but I did like it and I still do.
Even nowadays, there are times that when I'm around a lot of people for too much time, I just have to get back, go home and be alone, it's a need I have, makes me feel a little bit better..

Well..I passed these 23 years of my life doing nothing, I mean, I sure did some stuff but some i'm not proud, and others I just don't know why I did it.
I feel like I'm not living, i'm just breathing.. Just keeping me alive because now when I look back what do i see? Nothing that has worth the effort of breathing.
Not all things are bad, I do have a great family (or at least some good-great-perfect relatives) but me as a person, I am nothing.
I finished university, I have a degree in something that I don't even like and I don't even imagine myself doing that "task" for the rest of my life..
Now I have this shitty lame job but that's the only thing I got.
When I think about my life in the future I see nothing..
I just see these impossible dreams that haunt me and that I know that they'll not take me anywhere..
Everything's so hard to achieve, we get lost and start weakning and that's our death, when we stop fighting and just get used to the shitty life we have and we just breathe..

..Because that's the only thing that it's left for us to do..